Rodeo! Math!! Breaking Dawn!!! HOMECOMING!

Being raised in small town Vernal you learn how to Rodeo the right way! So we got really excited when SUU had a college rodeo here in Cedar a couple weeks ago. It was way fun minus the wind!! However, it sure wasn't no Dinosaur Round-up Rodeo which was kinda depressing! We still got all dressed up and had a fabulous roommate night :)

Um I passed my first Math 1010 test last Monday!! I took the dang class last year but had a really bad attitude and just over all a horrible semester so it didn't turn out too well. I got a 90 freakin PERCENT on this test though so I have a very good feeling about it this year!

So I started reading Breaking Dawn this summer when I didn't have any homework and only got about half way through before school started. Last week for some dumb reason I decided to pick it back up again! Anyways I was thinking about the different guys in the book, Jacob and Edward of course! But you know how Jacob is always just Bella's best friend and nothing else?? You know how some guys are just like that? One of the best friends a girl could ask for and you love them to death but only as a friend...And then there is Edward! I want to find my Edward!!! I really shouldn't read love stories anymore...

CAN'T WAIT FOR THE MOVIE TO COME OUT ON NOVEMBER 18TH!!

 

I love fall for one reason and that is the football!! I'm not really into College football except for my own school especially on homecoming week! There was alot going on and even though we only went to a few things I still had fun last week! Me and Kelsey went to the Homecoming Queen Pageant and left early to dye my hair again HA! Me and Karlee went to some concerts friday night but left because of the rain! The storm was great that night though! I stood outside for like an hour just watching the lightning :) 

So story about this picture...We were at the

game and I was trying to take a picture of the

three of us but clearly that stands were packed!

The kid in front of me about grabbed my camera

because it was pretty much on top of his head when

I took the picture. I moved it a little fast and made that face...don't ask...

It was a super good game and we won 45 to 22!! Awesome week but now back to reality where I have homework, studying, reading, and no sleep ahead of me...

Walking uphill to school...both ways!!

To start I just want to say I love math when I understand it!! I struggled last semester with the proffesor, but this year I got an english speaking proffesor and can I just say it makes a world of difference! He is great and I have a test next week, which i'm pretty sure i'm going to pass with flying colors! However, I hate my first two classes of the day because we learn about things I want but can't have. Babies and food! Nutirion is at noon and I don't eat all day so that class is a total killer!! In my Human Development class we are just getting started and I'm pretty sure we get to see the miracle of childbirth today...Can't decide if I'm excited or not! HA!

Guess we will see how it goes. My teacher shared this little thing with the class a week or two ago and I really liked it! It kinda reminds me of how I grew up, wished I would have grown up, and how I want my kids to live.

Raising Kids! 

We tried so hard to make things better for our kids that we made them worse. For my grandchildren, I'd like better. I'd really like for them to know about hand-me-down clothes and homemade ice cream and leftover meatloaf sandwiches. I really would. I hope you learn humility by being humiliated, and that you learn honesty by being cheated. I hope you learn to make your bed and mow the lawn and wash the car. And I really hope nobody gives you a brand new car when you are sixteen. It will be good if at least one time you can see puppies born and your old dog put to sleep. I hope you get a black eye fighting for something you believe in. I hope you have to share a bedroom with your younger brother.

And it's all right if you have to draw a line down  the middle of the room, but when he wants to crawl under the covers with you because he's scared, I hope you let him. I hope you have to walk uphill to school with your friends and that you live in a town where you can do it safely. On rainy days when you have to catch a ride, I hope you don't ask your "driver" to drop you two blocks away so you won't be seen riding with someone as uncool as your mom. If you want a slingshot I hope you Dad teaches you how to make one instead of buying one. I hope you learn to dig in the dirt and read books.

When you learn to use computers, I hope you also learn to add and subtract in your head.

I hope you get teased by your friends when you have your first crush on a girl, and when you talk back to your mother that you learn what ivory soap tastes like. May you skin your knee climbing a mountain, burn your hand on a stove and stick your tongue on a frozen flagpole.

 I don't care if you try a beer once, but I hope you don't like it. and if a friend offers you a dope or a joint, I hope you realized he is not your friend. I sure hope you make time to sit on a porch with your Grandpa and go fishing with your Uncle. May you feel sorrow at a funeral and joy during the holidays. I hope your Mother punishes you when you throw a baseball through a neighbor's window and that she hugs you and kisses you at Christmas time when you give her a plaster mold of your hand. These things I wish for you--tough times an disappointment, hard work and happiness. to me, its a the only way to appreciate life.

"I hate love"

“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.”

 Neil Gaiman Quote

College!!

So I have officially started my Sophomore year of College!! Mostly I'm just posting today to tell everyone I may not blog so much this semester since I'm taking 16 credits (I know its not very much but I do have to pass Math so its gonna be tuff!) even though I'm pretty sure Kelsey is the ONLY one who reads this haha!

And seriously this is my life except add work in there somewhere!

Proud to be who I am

A week ago today this world lost a great man! Daniel Gurr was fighting for our Country when he lost his life. I only knew him from associations, but knew his family. They have been through a lot in the last couple years and this was another trial they have to overcome. As Uintah County came together to support our fallen hero it makes you think about how hard life can be and really how good I have it.  

My wonderful family came down to Cedar this past week for the Shakespeare festival and to go to St. George for a day for school shopping and to see the Tuacahn play Grease! It was great to have them down here and  I realized how lucky I am to have them here to support me in my life!! I love my Family and Friends so much and after this very emotional week I just want to thank them for everything they have ever done or will do in the future for me!

I am so proud to live in American and have all the freedoms that we are blessed with! I am proud to have been raised in a community where we can come together to support those in need and be grateful for how we got to be today! This summer I have been able to do many things that people in other countries and even ours could not even imagine doing. I am truly blessed to be where I am and have what I do today! I want to thank all those who have made it all possible!!

I feel like this is all my blog is about...

Changes!

I turned a year older last week so I guess I decided I need to change some things in my life. School is of course always one of those things in my life I seem to keep changing my mind about. So naturally I changed classes twice in the last week and now only taking 16 credits this semester instead of 18 like I had originally planned! Hehe :) I'm still planning on just getting my Assoicate's right now so that didn't change and I truely doubt it will cause I'm super not excited about starting school other than the fact I'll have something more to do during my days than work.

Work has been killing me lately! Its either too boring or so busy that I just hate it! Its just not really what I want to be doing witht the rest of my life and I'm ready to move onto whatever that it! Anyways so my days have been pretty much the same so I decided to start working out again! I've tried afternoons and nights but I always want to play or am too tired so its never stuck. From now on I will be getting up in the mornings and going running so I can hopefully lose some of my "Freshman 15" or at least look a little less pregnant!  I have officially been off Mt. Dew again for a week also :)

Since my hair is 3 different colors at this point I decided I needed to do something with it! Especially since school is starting in a couple weeks lol! I was going to wait and go get it done all cute and what not, but after all my summer advetures I can't really afford it haha! So me and Kels will be dying my hair tonight...hopefully it will turn out okay and I can add another color that my hair has been on the swatches below :)

19th Birthday!!

So after a very long weekend of playing I didn't really feel like doing anything for my birthday...Me and Kels had to both work all day anyways! Ha! So I came home from work and made my own cake, watched Friends for awhile till Kelsey got home so we could eat my cake :)

It was a really long weekend and I look like it!!

I'm getting to old to blow out candles!!! Mostly cause there is so many of them! 

While we ate our cake, ice cream, and dew we watched one of the best birthday movies!!

Tangled is my favorite!!!

Even though I fell asleep half way through.... :)

It was still a pretty good birthday! Thank you to my mommy, sis, the boys, Lexie, Casey, Karlee, my bestest friend Kels, My grandma and grandpa who bought me the hoodie I was wearing even though they didn't know that, all those who said something on facebook!! Love you all!!

Wow!! What a weekend!

As the summer comes to an end (kinda) we decided to have one more blow out of a weekend before school starts, one leaves on a missions, and others move to not so foreign places. Kelsey had to work Friday night so we missed the Scout breakfast and parade for the Pioneer Day celebrations :( We partied at the Drive in that night though with our future missionary! Rat was the one reason we came to Vernal that weekend for his Farewell. He left on my Birthday which was very mean but he will be a Great missionary and will be missed VERY much!!! As well as the Drive in, I finally got to see Vernals Ocean!! I've heard of it but never went to see it! Legit!! Haha! I love being in Vernal and playing with great friends!

Priceline is an AMAZING thing! Casey didn't know he was going to have an apartment in SLC when we signed up for all our crazy adventures so we got a hotel room. Let me just say it was TOTALLY worth it! We stayed in a almost 200 year old Hotel with Tempurpedic beds and honestly the only things they needed was a pool and fluffier towels! It was so nice to come back after the concert to something so Comfy!!

Okay so we all know Katy Perry as the girl who sang "I kissed a girl" but she is SO good! We decided to go to her concert in like February and it was a GRAND idea!! We started listening to her new CD and fell in love! It was well worth the wait even though it snuck up on us pretty fast! Me and Karlee were the only ones who bought anything all day including The California Dreams Tour shirts!! They were super cute and totally worth what we spent HAHA!

My dearest Kelsey isn't much of a pop music kind of girl but we sure do love jamming out to Katy Purry!! We had alot of fun even though I was the only one really jamming out at the concert :) I just really get into things like that, but my fellow concert goers weren't as much into the screaming at the top of there lungs and dancin to the music lol!

Our roommate for last year was also attending the concert just in a more crazy way lol! She and her friend dressed up and so we had to see them before the concert! Super funny girls and I love Nikki to death!!

The BEST Concert I've ever been to!! This picture was on the stage during one of our favorite songs "Firework"! The Concert had a cute/cheesy story line that went along with most of her songs and she had a ton of special effects, costumes, and was super nice and good the all the fans! She even sang REALLY well live! I would seriously consider going to all of her concerts from now on!!

Since we were going to be up North anyways we decided to make it complete with a trip to Lagoon!! We were all super tired from the night before but were still there before the park even opened!  

Me and Kels on the Terror Ride! Ima just gonna say Kels screamed like a little girl through the whole thing!

It was so Hot and Humid that we decided to start riding all the wet rides around 1 ish! We went on the rapids twice and the log ride once...We were wet the rest of the day!! Not a good idea!! Haha!

After a very long day and weekend we were extremely exhausted!! Kelsey looks like a lobster and I'm so sore from jamming out I can barely stand, but it was still worth all the money and time we spent!! I wish every weekend could be like this one!!!

July and My New Goals

A spur of the moment trip home for the holidays can really be a good idea! Even though it was last weekend it still changed my life...weird how one weekend can change a persons whole perspective on the future.

So the whole reason I went  home this last weekend because of my wonderful car problems. Of course! I was driving my dad's Dodge neon after I had painfully learned to drive stick-shift, driven it for 6 months, and finally it felt like "my" car...It decides to break in 5 different places!! I HATE cars!!!!!

So after the trip to Vernal (which did involve me getting another speeding ticket, my second in the last 6 months) my daddy fixed everything except for the window shield. Dad thought it would be a bad idea if I drove it all the way back to Cedar, so I took my sisters car which is actually mine since I bought it 2 years ago. She decided to throw a fit every chance she got about it! I HATE sisters and cops! Both drive me crazy!! I'm going back to Vernal in 2 weeks, getting my car back, and giving hers back to her...you would think she would be okay to rely on our mom for 2 weeks...but NO!!

ANYWAYS after my weekend of car drama my mom said seriously quote "If you hadn't already signed up for classes and had your finacial aid I would say find another job and just buy a car." I was shocked!! But now all I want to do is quit school and buy a car :D

I always wanted a truck but I know that wont happen till I'm married which seems to be getting pushed back farther and farther, however that's a whole nother story that I wont be getting into today lol. After what mom said it made me start to re plan my life again. Now I'm going to make it through this next year of school as fast and hard as I can. Then either start the 2 jobs, saving, and buying a car route, or hair school! I keep putting the things that I want most in my life off for things that would be more sensible or what my parents would want me to do.

I want to quit my job because most days it drains my happiness, start hair school, feel like I can actually do something with my life, and I feel like I don't just have to wait around for prince charming to recuse me from my pathetic life. I think after being home kinda put downer on my life. My sister and I were looking through my mom and dad's pictures from back when they were in high school and they were just SO cute! Dated all through high school, mom waited for him on his mission, and the only problems they ever had were each other parents...I want that! Now its too late for the high school sweet heart dream and I just want to find that one guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep, the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on...blah blah blah!

 

Stuck in my head!

So recently this song/video has been on my mind constantly! I couldn't figure out why until today. Of course my boyfriend didn't die and it wasn't nearly as heartbreaking as this video. However, this video does remind me of a sorta kinda relationship I recently had. All and all its an Amazing Video and seriously makes me cry every time!  

How summer should be :)

 So to start off the week me and Kels decided to make a random trip to Sanpete County to see our Mama Ra Karlee and so I could finally participate in the amazing Manti Pageant. To start we decided to take my car since Kelsey's AC doesn't work and it finally is summer now! The cute little purple neon on made it all the way there and back even with the previous weeks compilications. It was an awesome trip and totally worth it even though I almost killed a squirrel on the way there haha!

Me and Kels even got hit on by some 16 year old boys who had clearly planned out coming and talking to us and thought we were maybe there same age :) LOVE IT! The only thing that seriously sucked about the whole trip was the fact that I got eatten by mosquitos! I have a total of 18 bits and half of them are on my butt...which I still don't understand how that even makes sense...But It was still worth it :)

A couple weeks ago I was hanging out with Casey and Kenzie when we heard a commerical on the radio. PARACHUTE IN SPRINGDALE(wherever that is lol)!!! We were all so excited we went home and bought tickets like that night!

So last night (Friday June 24th) we went off to find this Springdale for our concert. Well  of course none of us had looked up the directions just thinking it was in St. George somewhere. It took us awhile to find it but once we did it was so pretty!  Just so you all know Springdale is a town in Zions National Park ha! Who would have thought?!? Anyways it was a seriously awesome concert! Will (the lead signer) was way funny and totally came into the crowd to mosh with us!

They are extremely good live and I recommend anyone who hasn't heard them to youtube them immediatley! It was so much fun and we got back to the CC in enough time for Kels to try and kill me twice and wash her car at 1am. LOL! Love IT!

First Month of Summer 2011!!

Yes it has been awhile since I have told the world about my life but its been crazy!! The end of May I went home for Uintah High Graduation and hung out with my sis and all her friends pretty much all weekend ha! But it was good to go home and get away from real life for a weekend! My awesome aunt Steph took some amazing family pictures! And I did a couple randoms of me and the sibs :) I really do love going to vernal, but Cedar has honestly become my home!

Also Me and My bestest friend Kelsey have had many great adventures I just can't speak of most of them because they are all top secret! HA! Sucks to be all you who don't know!!!

 

This last week I went to Cali with some of my greatest family members ever! I went to be my aunts other half and help out with all the crazy kids...HA!! GREATEST BIRTH CONTROLL EVER!!!! I'm SO not having kids for a very long time! It was actually really fun though! We spend 3 days in Disneyland, went to Seaworld and Legoland! It was all way fun except for the car rides and the flu that got passed around the family durning the week...NOT FUN!

3D Glasses for STAR TOURS!!!

(Ya I know...I am a TOTAL Nerd)

After Splash Mt.

And don't make fun of the shirts! It was the best idea ever!! Haha!

After this month of great adventures with many more to come, I have offically I don't need men! I know that one was random but its true...at least for now! My car has recently chosen to fall apart on me which of course i'm use to by now since every car I have does this to me! But guess what?!? I can fix it by my sefl!  Also if i'm not having kids for a couple years then why should I stress about a guy! Its been a recent discovery for me and I'm lovin it! Haha! Me and Kelsey have planned some seriously fun trips and things to do with our lives. These things don't involve men unless they make the effort first! Once again I know its a really random bit, but its just how I feel lol! Anyways I'll keep ya posted on my summer adventures as they come :) Peace!

"Its a beautiful day in Cedar City"

After two very long stressful weeks dealing with finals, moving out, saying goodbye to roommates and the cottage crew, being homeless, and finally moving into out new place I think I am finally back into a normal routine. Sleep, work, eat, work out, sleep, work, eat, work out, sleep, work, eat, work out, and Sleep! Ha! Love it! I decided the other day that I need another hobby other than eating and watching TV since that's all I've been doing in my spare time.
After it rained, hailed, and snowed Monday when we were trying to move it has been beautiful here in Cedar. It also seems like the weather may try and act like May...Its weird! Living down here makes you really love the outdoors and I honestly wish I did more things outside ( or could afford to do things haha).
I have a sudden urge to go camping too! I never wanted to go camping when I was younger, but now for some reason I really miss it and see myself as one of those "Lets go to the mountain every weekend" kind of person. My roommate Karlee told me yesterday that I am going to have to marry rich because I want so many toys like trucks, 4 wheelers, trailers, boats and a real big nice house to add to it all :) We will see if that happens... :) I've also been very baby/kid hungry the last couple days because I seem to see them every where!!! Also my friends friend had a baby girl and she is the cutest little thing ever!
However, I'm in this new mind set where I want to finish school before I have kids and get married! Its weird because a month ago I didn't even care if I did or not. I feel as if it has taken me this whole year to realize what I want with my life. After moving away from my parents I still had this hold on me that was dragging me back to Vernal. Learning so much about myself this last year in college with roommates and other relationships made me really find out who I am and that I don't have to be in Vernal to be that girl. I want to thank my roommates and friends here in Cedar who helped me realize all that! Its been a great learning experience this past year and I'm glad I can finally start breathing again.
Anyways ya'll have a good weekend! And live it up a little cause you only live once <3

So I wasted time looking at pictures and quotes to explain my stress and these two fit pretty darn well. Now that I have been distracted for more than enough time I'm back to stressing out about my crazy hectic life! I'll maybe write after finals and being homeless for a couple days :)